December 8th, 2006 at 11:13 am
I have always been having on and off dreams of my childhood elementary/ high school schooldays and friends I used to hang out with. Although I can’t remember their names as it was years ago, my image of them as kids is just picture clear. I probably won’t be able to recognize them when I see them or pass them in the street now.
I did keep in touch with one childhood friend, strangely enough not as close as the other ones. She is now a doctor, far from the kid that I pictured her to be in elementary school. I just wonder how the others turned out. I heard a couple of years ago somehow that one my good friends I used to play tennis with from high school was killed in a car accident (I always have dreams of playing tennis with him). Made me sad and had deep thoughts of how short life can be. With bit and pieces of news of old friends throughout the years, I wish I made a more conscious effort to stay in touch.
I think dreaming of those times points towards the mind’s subconscious of going back to a time when I was happy with life. I did some research and even bought a dream book. Here are several interpretations…
Dreaming about school indicates some sort of inadequacy in life and lack self confidence, and as a school is a place to learn, it symbolizes that you feel there is still a lot to learn in life and that your life is not fulfilled yet. There is an unconscious reminder that there is a need for new learning and that you may have not learned an important lesson. From a spiritual point of view, some believe that in the dream state an individual may travel to an inner plane or the spiritual realm, where they can attend classes which assist in spiritual growth and development.
Those interpretations are true to the words. I feel lost and I need to rediscover myself. At times I look in the mirror and don’t really know who I am looking at. The very person that was calm and worry free is now lost in oblivion. The positive side of all this is that at least I know it, and that I am trying to take steps to try to be my old normal self again.
(Sources: Experience Festival, J Lewis’s Dream Encyclopedia)
5 Responses to “Lost”
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Lora said: @ 12:12 pm
December 8th, 2006
Remember Freud said that you are everyone in your dreams.
That will make you think.
Be safe…
Kristyn said: @ 3:34 pm
December 8th, 2006
I have the strangest dreams possible, encompassing everything from my experiances, to my professors, friends, family, etc. I dream about things that are real and not real. I’ve considered buying a dream encyclopedia over the years but I’ve always wondered how I would even begin to research why I dream the way I do.
Good luck finding yourself again, Foo. I think it’s something most of us strive for and to know that someone was able to actually find themselves again gives us all hope. :)
Bean said: @ 3:54 am
December 9th, 2006
Wow Foo. That’s heavy stuff. What is it you think you have lost? Just your calm? I seriously hope you feel differently when you wake up in the New Year, and if that’s really what those dreams are about, I hope they stop soon.
kristarella said: @ 11:22 pm
December 11th, 2006
Lost is just the word I would have used too. Been feeling that way for a while. I wouldn’t claim to know what you’re going through as we are all different. I hope that you get found soon, or even if it’s not that soon I hope it’s a gradual thing and keep depending on those that love you most.
I dreams can be helpful because they can help you realise what you’re worried about. They can be a pain too because sometimes there’s a reason you suppress stuff :P
Keep fighting the good fight.
Jeff said: @ 5:36 pm
December 12th, 2006
I constantly dream about school. It is usually about having to attend a class that I hadn’t been to in weeks. Hate that dream!